am i beautiful? am i usable?

So who's keeping score on who is a whore?
Hello again poly, it's been a while.
But I'm bored and lonely and need something to keep me occupied and awake while I wait to see if my boyfriend will be home early enough for me to come over...missing him lots :(

Am I beautiful? Am I Usable?

4 months ago - 101 views
Am I beautiful? Am I Usable?
The Killing Lights - AFI
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What's black, and white, and red all over?

6 items - 5 months ago - 7 views
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You're just the perfect little human wreck...
Get Away With Murder - Jeffree Star
And you always know to find me where the darkness glows...
Where To Find Me - The Monster Goes Rawrr!!
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The stars that pierced the sky, he left them all behind...
Miss Murder - A.F.I
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With heaven above you, there's hell over me...
Hell Above - Pierce The Veil
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I want to be next to you...

6 months ago - 168 views
I want to be next to you...
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They'll never take us alive, to live in love and die...
Pre-making sets for FU college years :)
Getting excited!
This you cannot miss, so come on, come on...
@hopscotchandheritage
 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIERRAKINS!
 
I'm still not actually sure what date your birthday is, I'm sorry D: but I saw Lily's set and I needed to make you a birthday set too.
I wonder if you can get the significance of some of the items used in this set... ;)
 
Because you wrote me a wonderful zaspen story....
for your birthday, I've written an alternate ending to my graduation story.
 

 

 
tiffany kors:
 

once back at max's, i go upstairs, david still downstairs.
i kick off my shoes and take a few deep breaths, trying to psyche myself up.
i pick up the bag, ready to go into the bathroom.
"so, high school's over, huh?" david says, walking into the bedroom.
i jump, surprised, and what happened next felt like time had slowed to a snail's pace.

the bag drops from my hands.

the pregnancy tests fall out.

david and i simultaneously drop to the floor.

he picks one up.

he reads it.

the emotions on his face changed dramatically over the next few seconds.

intrigued,
confused,
surprised,

he drops it, as if it was a hot coal.

he looks at me.

his eyes demanded explanation.

"i'm late" was all i could muster.

his eyes trail me up and down.
"f/uck..." he says, softly, elongating the word by about ten u's.

i could see he was having the same thoughts as my earlier ones.
i could read it in his face.

i place a hand on his cheek and offer him a smile.
he attempts to smile back, but fails miserably.
i grab both the tests and stand up, turning my back from him and walking into the bathroom.

i knew what to do, i'd done this before.
it's amazing how different the circumstances were this time around,
but how similar the feelings were about it.

time didn't tick by any faster.
the waiting period as slow as ever.

i hear a soft knock on the door.
"uh, is, uh, everything, um..." david stutters.
at least he'd gotten up off the floor.
he's doing better than edward cullen did.
i hear a deep breath, "is everything um, okay?"
"just waiting out the minutes for the reading" i call back, then open the door up for him.
he walks in and stands beside me.
he reaches out, and takes my hand in his.

it must have been some sight,
the two of us in our formal attire,
standing side by side in a bathroom,
hand in hand,
waiting for the results of a home pregnancy test.
i could practically see the image in a gossip girl blast right now.

"tiff, i think...it's done"
i quickly snatch it up with my free hand and look at the little screen.
"two lines" i say.
david snatches the box and reads the side.
"two lines...that means-"
"it means i'm pregnant"
 
a long pause ,
it felt like endless silence.
you couldn't even hear the breaths we took.
 
"you're pregnant" a voice of disbelief.
 
"i'm pregnant" a voice of uncertainty.

we stood for endless minutes,
the two of us staring at the pregnancy test
wishing it would change, while contemplating our futures.
 
what will we do?
will we even keep it?
how will we raise it?
what will our parents think?
what will our families think?
what will our friends think?
will we be good parents?
what will this do to our futures?
what will this do for...our /baby's/ future?
 
i still had eyes locked on the test when i felt arms lock me in their warm, loving embrace.
"babe, we'll figure this out. we can do this. no matter what, remember i love you. i love you tiffany kors-azria with all my heart"
his lips pressed against the top of my head,
planting a loving, caring kiss.
 
i couldn't hold back anymore,
the emotions of today broke the dam i built up around them.
they came flooding to the surface.
sobbing, tears raining down my cheeks,
i threw my arms around david,
hugging close to me, holding him tight.
"i love you david, always will"
 
our embrace dragged on,
neither of us wanting to let go.
letting go meant facing the facts,
planning for the future.
right now in this hug was just love.
 
i let one hand drop to my stomach,
tracing a small circle before lingering there.
inside, cells were multiplying and splitting.
a baby was forming,
a little person who could be ours.
half of david,
half of me,
and in that moment,
with the realisation of this,
it was impossible not to love the future baby in my belly.
 
this moment,
right here, right now,
could be our first family hug.
 
the first of what could be a lifetime of hugs.
 
a subtle smile appeared on my face,
perhaps i was stressing too much,
over-thinking,
over-reacting.
 
maybe things will not turn out as bad as i imagined,
perhaps we could make life a fairytale,
living out happy endings.
 
just david and me,
 

and our little davany.
 

 

 
[original ending: http://www.polyvore.com/high_school_never_ends_roads/set?id=55258737]